Man, anxiety and paranoia are a bitch. Last year I finally decided to get help and went on some meds to help control mine, along with some other issues I was dealing with.
Good luck with all that.
I've been on meds for almost 20 years. Sometimes they help, sometimes they don't. I've been switched around to different ones for depression & anxiety. I'm now getting tired of my back n' forth of them working. I'd like to get off meds, partly due to not wanting to sacrifice my body, so I can be sort of sane. They have to check various things once a year, I think the liver is the main one that these meds tend to attack & both my brother & I get regular blood tests to see how our organs are doing(though, he's managed to stay on Prozac all these years).
My wife got off meds recently, & has been on them for 20+ years after something someone did to her that really messed her up. She's doing ok, but, as expected, has withdrawl & detox symptoms. She's been doing more aroma therapy with essential oils, seems to be really helping her, but, getting off meds is a loooooong road. I hope someday I can do it, as even now with all my meds I still get hot flashes, my throat tightens up & hurts like hell, or sometimes it's my chest, heart palpitations, etc. It makes earning a living & being the man of the house & being a responsible adult annoying, but I ain't giving up. I just keep fighting, keep doing research, keep trying new things to try to keep me calm.